Saturday, June 23, 2012

It's been a long time...

It's been a long long time since I last updated my blog. Not sure if anyone still reads it? Guess not coz there's no updates at all for the past more than a year I guess. :) Having a blog is like having a "exposing my life to the public" diary to me. Coz I'm not the girlie cutie type that talks about fashion, shopping, beauty products etc... I'm more into talking about my life experiences, adventures, traveling etc... For me that is far more interesting then those mentioned earlier. Please pardon my English as from my past post about my life you can tell I'm not a highly educated person. And it's been such a long time since I start writing in paragraphs. Lol... So what hv I been doing for the past 2 years? Honestly, nothing much... Wasted another few years of my life. Getting over a past relationship, moving back to Bayshore Park and this year Chantilly Rise. Moving about every year or so it's a norm thing for me. I've been staying on my own since donkey years back almost 20 years I think. But I would hv to say I've finally found the best housemates ever. Just how do I meet them? Personal friends? Friend's friend? Relative? Nope of the above. He's my FB friend, 'S'. He used to be really active on FB and commented on my status every now and then. He was staying just a few level above me, spotted me one day drop a PM in my FB and eventually that's how we officially know each other.  Things went sour for my last relationship which I was suppose to move in with my ex. Everything come crashing down. The lease for Bayshore Park was about up then. Plans to move in with him, void. Am at a lost. Then at the same period of time 'S' text me saying he had a spare room for rent. Giving me a friendship price knowing my situation was just so thoughtful. Moved in with him and his gf 'C'. One issue solved, from the 16th flr I moved up to the 23rd, same block! Saving the hassle of engaging movers.  Started working part time for my friend, back to my old trade of the entertainment line. Met a guy went into a unrealistic relationship unexpectedly as he's so much younger than me. Not sure where this is heading, leaving it to fate. As you can see I dun really like to talk much about relationship as it's just not about me alone. I believe in respecting the other's privacy.  Been wanting to get a full time job but dun really hv gd options so I've been helping out part time till now. Moving from Bayshore to Chantilly with my housemates. I wouldn't say starting life anew as things are somewhat still the same. Debts issues not settled, career not establish etc...  Out of a sudden, few months back came an opportunity. One of my ex boss from the most happening pub I ever help set up and manage approach me with the idea of starting a pub again. This time round I'm no longer a manager but partner. I spend some time thinking over as before I'm back into this trade I hv been trying to get out of it. But right now being back and seeing how gd I can still survive in this trade makes me change my mind. I think I can afford another 3 years hands on in this market. Why waste it? Why waste anymore time? I decide to give my best last shot. Right now, venue is confirmed just waiting for handover and renovation job to be done before officially announcing the opening of my new pub. The next few months is gonna be a stressful one for me but it's all gonna be worth it. I hv faith and I must do it. Time to change my life for the better...   Been battling with insomnia and sleeping disorder for the whole week. Hopefully they would leave me alone so I can sleep better and start to fight a gd battle soon... Hv a gd weekend.... - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Healing period

It's been 2 months plus since my last posting. Am going thru a healing period from my broken last relationship... Back to being by myself and my usual life by renting a room and being out there with friends and doing things that I love doing.

Won't be saying much on this post as I'm gonna get ready to go out for lunch. Not forgetting fishing session after that. Picking up my old hobby and damn it feels gd to be fishing again! Gonna make it a regular past time again... Lot more things to do in life... I'm down and out but I'm still alive. Just a matter of time the tide will turn around. I must not give up on my life. Life is such, once u give up on yourself that's it. Never say die till u hv the courage to give up on your life. Hang on... Gambate!

Monday, February 14, 2011

Soooo difficult...

Why is it so difficult to focus on making my life right? Simple, the one up there enjoy challenging me. When this thing finally goes the right way, that thing screw up. Never gonna be smooth two ways or more. Am happy now for my career path, a new and challenging job of my interest and a part time job that I'm so damn familiar with. Future looking bright isn't it? Personal life? Screwed up, dunno what to look forward to. Gosh! Why must it be so difficult? So hard to keep going trying to balance my emotion that way. I already given up hoping for good things in life. All I want is a fulfilling life, a career that I'll wake up and look forward to going to work, a companion that I can wake up to seeing his loving and smiley face and last but not least clear my debts and live happily.

But it's just so difficult, all so difficult. Simple word, the solution to my problem? Money... The root of all evil... No doubt I got myself into the mess I am in today. But everything happens for a reason. Which goes way back and no point talking about it. What done can't be undone. All I can do now is to make it right. How? Same word, money. Once the issue is money, no matter how u try to make it up in other ways it's never gonna help. Once u owe money or if the issue is about money you'll suffer. There's nothing much u can say or do about someone treating u badly or saying anything about u when u owe them money. It's especially painful and difficult if it's with the one u love. Coz this will leads to the relationship cracking up. Especially difficult if u got to face each other everyday. Having to take all kinds of attitude and live unhappily everyday. It just make life so difficult and miserable.

If there's no miracle, it could be time for me to find a place to house myself. Again it's another difficult issue, half my things somewhere which I need to move by end of this month. Half of my things here where I dun feel a sense of belonging anymore and may be on the verge of having to move soon if miracle doesn't happen. Wah... My head is gonna blast!

I really really give up on a lot of things. I just wanna pay back whatever money I owe whoever and live life anew. As long as i can live happily even if I'm alone at the end of the day, it doesn't matter. Life is already so miserable, happiness is something money can't buy. Can u imagine how miserable I am? No money and no happiness. Lol... I can give up on a lot of things. But I'm not really to give up on my life yet. So, u! Yes, u up there! Pls stop torturing me. Give me a new life. Everyone has their flaws. Yes, I hv a major flaw that ruin my life big time but other than that I'm not that bad a woman after all. Please don't make it so difficult for me can? I hv suffered enough since I'm born. Just give me a new life and a new start coz I'm not ready to give up yet. I'm not ready to lost it all. I know my life is not gonna be just like that forever. Give me the strength!


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Thursday, February 3, 2011

5 things I always believe in

1. Life sucks when you are not brought up having a complete family especially a mother by your side.
Moral of the story: Treasure your family when they are still around.

2. Stay away from abusive people if you have a choice, they will only cause tremors in your life. I grew up with an abusive dad and trust me, my childhood sucks big time.
Moral of the story: Never become one yourself as you wil only bring misery to others.

3. Education is important as what everyone knows. Never give up studying or learning no matter how old you are.
Moral of the story:  Without proper education, somehow or rather you will seems to lose direction in life if you are not discipline enough.

4. Always respect every individual young or old, rich or poor if you want others to give you the same respect.
Moral of the story: We all come to this world with nothing and we will go with nothing and we only live this lifetime. So, give respect to every individual.

5. Never look down on yourself or anyone.

1st day of CNY

Finally found the show I wanna watch, 真心话 on QQ... But I got no mood to watch at all. Another unhappy new year. Haiz... When can I be happy? Did something wrong and going thru the ordeal now. Nothing much I can do or say. No matter how I try to be nice and do my best now doesn't seems to make up for what I've done. Guess there's only one thing that will change things for the the better and yet that one that is something that I dun hv now... If I hv that thing, I wouldn't be so unhappy now. :( 

Anyway, happy new year everyone...

Friday, November 26, 2010

Romantic Ideas for Love Letters

* When they aren't looking put a love letter in their pocket.

* Spray your love letters with perfume.


* Surprise your mate with twenty-six gifts from A to Z that begin with each of the letters of the alphabet.


* Write love letters at least monthly.


* Write a long love letter, then seal it with a kiss and mail it.


* Write your love a love letter using kiddie stickers that say things like "terrific" or "top notch". It's a colorful way to spice up an ordinary love letter and will be sure to make their day that you put in the extra time.


* Write a surprise love letter to your significant other on a bed sheet (the one you use to cover up with).


* Write a love letter and put it in a glass bottle. Place the bottle somewhere that you know your love will find it.


* Find out his favorite colors and make him a blanket, preferably fleece, and on one side using felt letters write something like "Cover you in kisses" or "I Love you" or "Wrapping you in my love" or something like that.


* Give your love a letter opener on a Wednesday and on Friday (or Saturday) give her 4 envelopes (not all at once) the first one is where you are going for dinner, the second has a CD with love songs, the third has movie tickets to the movie she has been dying to see, and the fourth has a letter that says "I Love You".


* Buy a dozen or so love cards and a box of stationary. Keep a few cards and/or sheets in your car, purse, briefcase, etc. Whenever you are stuck waiting somewhere, take a few moments and write a love letter.


* Send a loving e-mail, poem or letter to your loved one.


* Write down the 26 letters of the alphabet (placed in vertical order on the paper) and write down a description of your boyfriend/husband that starts with that letter. Example: A -- Ambitious; B -- Breathtaking; C -- Cuddly; D -- Delicious; E -- Exciting; F -- Friendly; G -- Good kisser; H -- Handsome; I -- Ingenious; J -- Jock; K -- Kind; L -- Lover; M -- Masculine; N -- Neat; O -- Outstanding; -- And so on. It helps if you have a thesaurus at hand to look up words that describe your man.


* On a special occasion put a little confetti or tiny heart cutouts (not a whole lot though) on top of the visor in his car. When he brings down the visor to block the sun the confetti will sprinkle down on him. You could also put a love letter or love-note there.


* Hand write love letters and leave them under his pillow. Be sure to use romantic stationery, avoid clichŽs, and tell him how you really feel.


* When you feel like your getting comfortable with each other... dig out the old love letters that they sent to you... and send the letters (on a new sheet of paper or card or whatever) to your love... they will love the fact that you kept the letters, and love it even more that you sent them the same letter that they used to win your heart.


* Write them a letter using the letters of their name to start each line.


* Write them a letter that has I LOVE YOU as the first letter of each line.


* Write them a letter that has I MISS YOU as the first letter of each line.


* Send your love anonymous love letters on little pieces of scented paper, and tell him/her to meet you somewhere romantic...like the first place you went maybe. Blindfold them and gently kiss them all over their face...SOFTLY like an Angel.


* Get a deck of cards and give them one every week of the year with a love letter on it.


* Send your love a letter with confetti hearts inside of the letter so they pour out everywhere when your sweetheart opens it.


* Just write them a letter that says "I LOVE YOU" all through it, and it sure will lift their spirits.


* Write little notes to say "I miss you".


* Buy a candle and send it to your special someone. Include a letter that says "Whenever you want me to be with you and I can't be there light this candle."


* Read old cards and letters from each other to each other.


* If you have a projector and an empty white or light colored wall (garages are perfect usually) write your letter in dark ink on a piece of paper and project it on the wall for them to find.


* On a plastic white or light colored plate, write a love letter creatively in permanent pen. Make dinner and leave the plate in place of your normal serving ware. (Make sure to switch it back before putting food on it.)


* Stop by a local florist and get a bag of rose petals. Use them to leave a trail of rose petals to a romantic surprise, or put them in your next love letter.


* Even if you don't have a long-distance relationship with your honey write him/her a letter occasionally. It could be short and sweet or even a couple pages long, but it shows that you care and sometimes it's easier to write stuff down and then you can talk about it in more detail later.


* Leave a love note hidden under the pillow.


* Send a small evergreen tree with a note stating your pining for them.


* Put a note in a romance novel saying, "The story is great but our own love story is better."


* Write a sweet one page or more love note every few days. Leave it in various places where they can see it.


* Leave several post it notes with loving comments or compliments so that they will be found eventually.


* Leave 11 roses on your love's car seat, give them the 12th after work with a note that says "I Love You."


* Take an empty aspirin bottle, and gave it a label like romance medicine, take as needed. Then write out 50 or so love notes and sexy ideas that could be taken anytime that a cure was needed!!


* Get your love a candle which is shaped like a rose and leave a note with it that says that you got this special rose because it will never die like natural roses, exactly like your love won't die like other natural relationships. (Since this rose is a candle, it wont die until someone burns it and your sure neither one of you will burn the candle or your love!!!!)


* Leave a love note when and where your partner will least expect it.


* Always have a notepad and pen or some stationary with you wherever you are. This way when you're waiting in line you can write them a quick love note.


* Before your lover gets home, set little notes all around the house. Start with one the refrigerator or on something they will notice, then do as many as you want and then let the last one be a wonderful surprise!


* Buy her a ring and place it on her finger as she sleeps. Then put a note somewhere you know she?ll see it (the bathroom mirror) telling her how much you love her.


* Get a bunch of those Post-it notes, that are sticky on one side. Write I Love You on about 100 of them (or as many as you want)and leave them where he will find them. (i.e.. when he comes home to an empty house, when you leave for work while he is still sleeping....)


* Fill a fish bowl with fish-shaped crackers and insert a note: "you're not the only fish in the sea, but you're the only fish for me!"


* Leave a detailed note in his coat telling him what is waiting for him when he returns home.


* Put kiss candies on the floor and flowers in the shower then write a note with the flowers saying "Now that I have kissed the floor that you walk on, let me shower you with flowers."


* Get a very large peice of card-board and draw a heart with the words ãI Love Youä on it. Then cut the heart out, then cut the heart up... send your love a note telling them that you are sending them a puzzle then send 1 piece of the heart a day (plan around Sundays) until they have all the pieces.


* Before you go to bed, place a little chocolate cupid on his or her pillow with a little love note.


* Place a heart shaped note telling your lover just how you would like to be kissed each day under his pillow and watch out!


* Placing a little bit of money in your beloved's pocket with a note that says "have a treat on me"


* Sending a note via overnight delivery to your sweetheart ("I couldn't wait to say 'I love you'")


* Leave a little love note somewhere you know they will find it... the freezer door, in the sunvisor, taped to the bottom of a glass, etc.


* During the day, pick up a book or magazine you know your partner would love, and put love notes in between random pages.



Thursday, November 11, 2010

November Babies

It's Nov again, time flies... Celebrated his and Jas's Birthday this month. Let's start with his birthday celebration as his birthday is on the 9th Nov, one day before Jas. Had two birthday dinner with two different group of friends for his birthday. First dinner was at Two Days One night, a Korean restaurant at Tanjong Pagar. Celebrated together with Sammie which is born on the same day.

Charmaine called and check with me his waist line and that set me thinking and wondering what they are getting for him Then right before we were about to leave the house it hits me that it could be a board short as he didn't used to have one till recently I got two for him when we went to Perhentian Island. So I told him, "I say they could be getting you a board shorts!" Then he asked me, "should I just wear one there so they would be surprise that I actually have board shorts already?" Lol... At the dinner, true enough it was a board shorts that they got for him and another two present. After that we went to party world for some healthy Karaoke with no alcohol.

The other dinner was with another group of friends at UE Square a Jap restaurant, we had buffet there. Afterwhich we head to Crew Room shoot some pool and head back home. You guys must be thinking, no celebration between you two? Wanted to arrange for dinner to surprise him actually end up it's Jas birthday as well and I'm going to meet up with her so dinner plan was cancelled. At the same time I was planning to go get his present as well. As we are together almost 24/7 I have no chance to plan any surprise or go buy present for him, that will be a good chance to do so, also I haven't seen the gals for a long time and was looking forward to catch up with them.

Went to Paragon to meet up with Jas and Shino on his actual birthday which ia 9th Nov, the eve of Jas birthday. Feel bad about leaving him at home alone so called up his friend that haven't meet up with him on his birthday to get him out of the house and keep him company. Lucky thing I called cause that pretty good friend of his actually forgotten his birthday. Then I proceed on to Paragon to meet the gals. Thought I was late as we are suppose to meet up at 6pm and I was in the cab at almost 6pm. End up, guess what? I was the first to arrive. Next comes the birthday gal then shino. We had a great time catching up over dinner. Had fun taking photos as well. Brought her two perfume from Body Shop and sneak it into her bag while she went to buy drinks for us. Glad she like it. :)

The next mission was to go buy his present. Wanted to get him a belt and a pair of new shoe as he only have one pair of casual shoe. Walk all over the place, just couldn't find a nice belt. It's either too thin or thick, too simple or too fanciful. So eventually I give up on the belt and decide to replace it with some tees. Brought him a pair of Puma shoe and some tee shirts. As it was pretty late most shops are close and Shino left earlier, me and Jas was running around Wisma and Taka like a mad dog searching for wrapping paper to wrap his presents

We were so lucky, as Watson at Taka closes at 10pm and they happen to have some wrapper but no tape. So I asked the cashier if it's ok we borrow some from them and use the counter to wrap the presents. She was kind enough to do me this favour. So we promptly wrap up all the presents and as it's late Jas got to head home so I started planning my surprise for his birthday. Message him to check where he is before I head home to plant my surprises for him and head down to meet them.

Took a cab home, got the cab driver to wait for me downstairs, ran up to plant all the present in different places to surprise him. I left the first present beside the shoe rack which is pretty obvious as it's the first thing you see the moment you come into the house. I planted the rest of the present all over the house, one on the side table at the balcony, one in his undies drawer, one underneath his pillow, one on the dresser and the last one in the toilet.

Meet him and his friend for some drinks and head home waiting to see his reaction when he sees his present. Guess what? Instead of surprising him, he surprise me instead by opening the door and walk right past his present without even noticing it. Then he went straight to the toilet and saw the last present instead. Thinking that was his only present he thank me and ask me to go to bed. I pretend to sit in the living room hoping he will notice his present beside the shoe rack and he only notice it when he came out of the room for the second to ask me to go to bed. He was a little tipsy and tired that's why he missed all the surprises.

So now he got two of the surprise and four more to go. Next thing, he went straight to bed and never noticed there was a present underneath his pillow even though he change his pillow till like 10 mins later. Faint!! That was all he discovered before he knock out and wake up to find the other three surprises the next day. And he actually miss out the one at the balcony side table when he walk right to it and look at the chair instead of the table and walk away thinking there's nothing there. Lol...

As the size of the shoe was wrong and that was the biggest size and we had to go back to change for another design and had lunch at Paragon the next day. What an eventful birthday surprises for the November babies. Last but not least, Happy Birthday my dearest baby and good pal Jas!!